Who are you? Our time is shorter than the part 1, how
many? 4 years?
Yes, you are a cope to me, to fix
something I lost, something dearly to me, why you?
You are the person that I can
talk openly, not like the others; I am not very good keeping or creating conversation
with other, especially with someone I like. You are the first one; you are the
first person I can talk to about technical matters, academic matters, and
my critical thought about some problem or a phenomenon.
We often agree or disagree about
something, but you can explain your agreement or disagreement to me, with the
way that I can accept that opinion. You and I have some similarity, we are a
stubborn person, and our stubbornness only gone when someone can explain what
they agree or disagree with logical explanation and reasons.
Not only that, you are a very few individual
that I know can use your feeling and reasons when facing, examining, and solving
a problem, that’s fucking cool! Even I can’t do that properly until now.
We are coping with something, you with
your problem, and me with my problem, I tried to convincing you, I dare to let
go my past, but, I guess you are not ready, so, here are we, in a stagnant
situation.
I still keeping my feeling, to you, it’s still
same, like that day when I told you, even I’m not trying any further, because I
guess your loss is too much and because of that, you still can’t accept the
reality (sorry if I’m wrong, I just guessing).
If we talked about the timing,
yes, I’m rushing things, but I do that because I didn’t want to lost you, you
talked to me, about anything, and it’s bugging me when I can’t do anything
about that. I just, can’t see you hurt and sad all the time.
If we look back, I think you have enough
to be sad and disappointed, and I don't want it to happen and repeat, I can't
promise, but I will try to try to change it all.
I don’t know much about you except the
thing you already told to me.
I hate when you sad, disappointed, and
hurt. I genuinely hate it. I think you are a strong person, maybe if someone
can understand what you feel, they can’t withstand it like you do.
So please, smile, I love seeing you
smiling, and laugh. Sometimes, you don’t have to think about it, just laugh.